2007. focus. january- dont remember february- dont remember august- summer september- beginning of senior year october- philippines november- finish apps december- mistakes, regret, tears, gary kendell RIP........sucked but w/e i cant change time. im powerless. not much to say. trying to recreate myself like madonna,..... jk... but relle. i got a green ipod. thats a yay.. yet. all these materials. all material, they can be replaced. to replace other things, like memories, thats pretty hard. to go back in time to change things. yeah id prolly do it. i want to redo 2007. this comming january. its going to be my last season with future shock. end of one of the most amazing chapters in my story. i havent been doing as well as i would like to. focus on one part and stick with it. ive been caught up trying to do everything at once. doesnt work. focus. im pretty secretive. i like to keep things bottled up. i cant trust like i want to. its hard to trust now. always has been. but even more these past years. fear? maybe. most likely. focus. everything swirls up what am i to do? i wanna have my own show. make my own indie movie. like beter luck tomorrow. you know that mtv movie about the asian kids who get away with murder? not like that. but base a movie on my emotions and personality. focus. why the hell am i writing in my xanga? why do i remember my password? focus. -nathaniel | 
